Shannon Alline Connolly - Online Memorial Website

I know I don't remember much. But I know I loved you a lot. I must have because you were an amazing aunt. I miss you so much. I can't think of much to say, but happy birthday. I think I was too young to realize you left and aren't coming back, because I wish I got to know you a lot better, and I probably need to write to you more, too. But I miss you, and I love you too. Happy birthday. I hope you're happy wherever you may be.

Happy Birthday Babygirl. I don't know why they keep changing the date of Memorial Day. You were born on Memorial Day so it will always be on May 30th to me.  The best memory I will ever have is the day you were born.  I will never forget how the nurses carried you up and down the hall and would tell all the other Mothers, have you ever seen such a beautiful baby? I thank God everyday for giving you to us, even if it was for just a short time. You were the light of our lives. I miss you and your Dad everyday. It's taking me so long to write to you, I just can't stop crying. I pray that one day Wayne will Let Mak see your site and write to you. We haven't seen her now in over five years. I'm sure she is as beautiful as her Mom.  I pray that someday God will heal our hearts and it won't hurt so bad to think of you and Dad. I remember all the good times too, but that November was the worst day of my life. My child should never have passed before me, it's just not right, but I guess God needed you for some special reason, and then he brought your Dad to keep you company. I pray that this is all just a dream and I will wake up and we will all be home in California with Mak running around like she always did. I don't know why God has kept my old body around for so long, I guess he has his reasons but I would have been happy to go a long time ago. Only God and Dez know how much I miss you and to not be able to see Mak on top of that pain is a knife in my heart everyday. Dez calls me regularly and we talk about you everytime. She was and still is the best friend you ever had. I know she misses you almost as much as we do. I wish Lena would come around more, I feel like Dez is the only daughter I have. You made the best choice in choosing her to be your best friend. She loves you so much. I can see I don't have much more room here, so I guess I will have to go on to the next page. I watch Criminal Minds all the time and at the end of each show they will recite a saying that relates to their case. This is my favorite. " A child should never die before her parents, it is the most unimaginable pain in the world, life will never be the same again. It is so true.  God how I miss you my Angel, my Baby, my Child. I have never known such pain in my life as the day God took you from us, and then your Dad after. This old body will wear out soon and I will see you and Dad once again. I only pray that I will get to see Mak before my time here is up and be able to tell her all about you, what a wonderful Mother you were and how she prayed forever to have you. I'm sure they tell her things about you, but no-one knows a child like her Mother and I want to tell her everything about you and show her all your pictures so she can see how you grew up to be the beautiful wonderful woman that you are. Sean is working at the College in Manhattan for the past two years and he really enjoys it there. I guess you know we have Zack and Buster with us now. They have grown so. Zack will be 17 in September and Bus will be 15. If we could only see Mak it would bring even more happiness into the ugly world. Damian is doing well. He has a lot of promises to keep but I pray God will see him through all his heartaches. He misses you so much. I know we shouldn't cry as you are in a better place now, but I am a selfish Mother and I want you back, happy, healthy and beautiful like you were before you got sick. I do thank him for giving you Mak, I know that was the happiest day of your life. God I wish they would come to their sesnses and let us see her. They have no idea how important it is for her to know her Mothers family. There is so much we can tell her that they don't even know about you. Someday it will happen and I only pray I am still here to let her know how much you loved her and how long you waited for her to come to you. Life here would be so much more bearable if you were still here with us. It breaks my heart to see Mak grow up without her Mother. Someday she will know all about you, if not from me then from her Aunts and Uncles. I often wonder if they know how much pain they cause us by not letting us see her. We only want the best for her and have only good thing to tell her about you. The days are long and the nights too short. I dream't of you last night and it was so beautiful. I guess God saves those dreams for special times, like your birthday, Christmas and Mothers day. We have not been out there in sometime. I know you're not there and you watch over us so we don't go as to not cause trouble for them or confusion for Mak. I pray to God she remembers us as I'm sure they don't talk to her about us and that is so wrong. They have to know that. She will always be a Connolly and has to know of her heritage, it is the most important thing in a childs life to know of her Mother and her family. Someday they will see and let go of all the hate and  bitterness as we have and realize she is the most important thing and no-one else's feelings even matter. There is so little to tell you of our lives here, they don't amount to much without you and your Dad. I stay home everyday and pray for the day I will see Debbie walking us the sidewalk with Mak. I know it will be her, she has a heart I know she does, I have seen it. He doesn't realize how his bitterness is hurting Mak, not just us. I have forgiven him everything and I hope he has forgiven me.  Time passes so slowly here and it just makes the pain last longer and is so unbearable. In my worst nightmares I never dreamed of losing you. You were such a light in everyones life. God made you so perfect and such a beautiful, loving and caring woman. Why he took you from Mak and us I guess I will have to wait and find out. They say this world will end this year and sometimes I think it can't be soon enough for me, but I want my family to go on and see what a beautiful world it can be. I can't believe I am a Great-Grandmother now. Kristinas little boy and girl are so beautifu. Thank God we get to see them often. I wish they could have known you and Mak. Ayleine is a lot like you, she is so tender and loving just like you were at that age. The big brown eyes that can melt your heart. Malakai is an old soul you can see it in his eyes. Well I did get enough page to finish up this little letter to you. I can feel you behind me reading every word. I would give my life to see you just one more time. I guess I will have to be patient and wait on the Lord to answer that prayer. We miss you and love you more then anyone will ever know Babygirl, yes you will always be my Babygirl, and Mak my sweet song. I will join you and Daddy one day, of that I am sure. God would not take you from me and not allow me to see you again. I look forward to that day. I will love and miss you all the days of my life Shannon, you are my Babygirl...Mom P.S. Please whisper in his ear and let him know we have no ill feelings anymore and just want to see Mak.



 

Feeling low today, miss you guys much. Hope you are not disappointed with me over the Mak and Wayne issue. Please ask God to touch his heart and let him know he can do the right thing.  I love you all.  Mom

Hey babe, 
Although your gone you  aren't forgotten!
Please give my mom a hug from me and kiss her on the cheek.
I miss you and pops. I could really use some of your
Advise right now.  I love you and miss you.
Ciao Bella.  XOXO 

Another year without you and Daddy.  I miss you both so much Shannon.  We haven't seen Mak in five years now. I pray she will remember us always. Kansas laws are so outdated. Everytime I try to do something so we can see her, I'm told we have no rights.  I don't understand how they can say we have no rights to your only child. She will learn the truth one day and woe to those who have lied to her for so long. Zack and Buster are getting so big I can't believe they are already 16 and 14. They too miss Mak and ask about her a lot. I don't understand how some people can be so cruel when it comes to children. Who better then your family can tell her about you and how much you loved her and always will.  No-one knows you like your family and she will one day want to know all about you.  They don't really know anything about you, they weren't there all the years you grew into the beautiful woman you are. I will miss you always my Babygirl until the day we meet again.  I love you Shannon.
                           Mom

Hey Babe,
Yup it has been awhile since i have writen on your page,but i have thought of you often as you know. Another year has gone by and I still miss you the same. I always wonder how Mak is doing, but the drama I can do without. One day she will be old enough and know the truth. I miss you dearly..
Hope you have a great celebration and just know I Love you and miss you always.

Ciao Bella  XOXO
 

It's almost that time again Babygirl. I will be out to see you on your Birthday. I know it's been awhile since I've written to you. I guess I just feel like I have let you down where Mak is concerned. This State is so ass backwards, no rights for the blood grandparents of a child who has lost her Mother. This was suppossed to be such a friendly state, yet people here are so heartless. I guess when you are so miserable in your own life you take it out on others. I love you my heart, see you soon.   Mom

Morning Babygirl. It's getting close to that time of year again when everyone is supposed to be so happy and thankful. I wish we could feel that way, but losing all of you it feels like we have nothig to be thankful for anymore. Buster is with us now also. Him and Zack are hurting so, feeling like their Mom doesn't want them. I pray God will show me a way to let them know how much they are loved and wanted by everyone. They ask about Mak a lot, I just tell them things will get better and then they can see her. Got to see some new pictures of her on facebook, she is getting so big and looks just like you. I guess I need to thank Debbie for posting them so her family can see how beautiful she is. I know Joyce is with you now, God will we ever stop losing the people we love. I talk to Dez a lot, she is so strong just like you, she's like having another daughter, I feel so close to her knowing how much she loves you still just like the rest of us. Last Sunday was Seans B.D. I always put the picture of the whole family up on birthdays and holidays so  it feels like we are all together. Kisses for you, Daddy and Shirley. I will miss  you always.

 

                             Love Mom

Hey babe,
I know you were there with pops and all of my loved ones greeting my mom when she got her angel wings. Please take good care of her!  I know we will meet again, all of us and we will have alot of catching up again....   I miss you terriibly.  You were always my strength and rock.  I called mom yesterday to let her know, please watch over her because she is the only mom I have left now and I cant take losing anyone else. Well we talk again, until the next time.
Ciao Bella  xoxox

Hey babe, I miss you so much right now, you were always the one who I can call at the time of need. As you look down from heaven and see my mom struggling with this cancer, gently reassure everything will be ok when she gets her wings. I am reliving the pain I went through watching you slip away, but now it is with my mom. She is in the hospital right now, and we are not sure how much more time she has. We wanted to bring her back home to California, but everyone says she might not make the trip. All I ask of you is to great her when she gets her wings and give her a big hug and kiss and let her know it's ok. I truly miss you friend and love you. Ciao Bella. Xoxoxo