Shannon Alline Connolly - Online Memorial Website

Morning Babygirl, got a call and an email from Dez. Concerning a friend of yours named Jim Curry. I don't know if we ever met him or my old brain just can't remember. Damian is in re-hab and doing very well, I think he has a good chance at making it this time. I'm sure you know we finally got a house. It has a basement for me, the tornados you know scare the Hell out of me, so I will surely meet you and Dad in Heaven. Sean finally got his garage. Rich is living with us for now.  He has grown so tall and will be 21 this year. Boy I can't believe how old I am, a great grandmother what a shocker huh?  The years are flying by so fast but it seems like only yesterday you were calling me on the phone and we were having our long conversations. If only we knew then huh?  I love you my sweet child, and I miss you and your Dad so much.

 

                       Love To You Both

                                  Mom

Hey babe,

I wrote on your wall the day of your birthday and funny thing it didnt post. I was at my moms visiting and as you know  she too is fighting cancer,ughhh!!!    As I look at her and her hair loss, i was brought back to you and when you were in Covina.  I sure miss you living here and us just hanging out. I hope you had a good b-day and celebrated it well, with pops and everyone .I  know shannon lit a candle as well but it didnt show up when I went to update it. So if she reads this she will know  that it wasnt me, because it happened to my post as well. I love you and m8iss you much.

Ciao Bella  XOXOXO

Happy birthday my babygirl.  I asked very nicely if we could come out and visit you today and as expected got no reply.  We are moving this week-end back into Junction.  Got a house there with a basement, thank you. I know you whispered in his ear and he listened.  I have emailed the State Senator and Governor here and his office called me back and told me who to get hold of in Junction to put a Grandparents Rights Bill up for vote in November.  I found out even without us having rights Mak does, so it looks like back to court again.  I have tried to be nice for so long and you know I have but now I am going to tell the judge everything his wife told me and I pray he has not harmed her in any way.  You know everything was fine until she came into town crying about leaving him and being afraid to leave Mak alone with him.  I know he is not right but to think he may be hurting her just tears my heart apart. I never thought he could be so cruel.  He is still punishing us for his wifes mistakes.  We will see her I promise you that. After all is settled in the new house I am starting the Heavenly war and this time there will be no emails back and fourth, I am going straight to C.P.S. and the Police. This has gone on for too long and I refuse to let it go any further. I have to admit I thank him for letting your Dad see Mak before he passed but she has really messed up everything. He got exactly what he deserves when he married her.  He had no idea what a good wife you were to him, all he could see were $ signs.  I don't care who sees this or responds to it, they can all go to Hell.  I am fighting for Maks life. Please forgive me for not visiting your site more often it is just so painful. We have lost so much in this State. You, your Dad, Tia Shirley, Buster and Vinnie.  I know That God has his reasons and that he will never put more then we can handle on us, but this is just too much and I can't take it anymore. We have stayed away hoping he would come to his senses and see he is not just hurting us but Mak also. She needs to know her Mothers family. I pray he never knows the pain of losing a child and her child along with that but he deserves what is coming for him. You were the perfect daughter, so kind and beautiful with a smile for everyone, why couldn't he see that?  Mak will know the truth and know her family I promise you, and I swear it will happen.  I know they come on your site to see what is being said, so read away you two. You both know everything said about you is the truth and your threarening emails will get you no where and you have seen that.  We love and miss you so much Babygirl. There is no greater pain in the world then losing a child. Can you believe I am a Great Grandmother now? Kristinas kids are adorable, I know you see them and I wish you could have met them, they would have loved you just as everyone you know loves you. You know we don't do Holidays anymore, we really have nothing to celebrate but loss and who want to celebrate that. I am thankful that you are with God now and no longer in pain. Rich talks to Danas daughter now and she has become hopeless. I wonder what happened to her to change her life so badly. Guilty conscience maybe?  I know this is suppossed to be a Happy Birthday letter but had to get these things off my chest, and you have always been such a good listener and still are. I love you Shannon and nothing will ever fill the holes in my heart from losing all of you. I remember when you were born and the nurses would come and take you around to all the other Mothers rooms and say, "Have you ever seen a more beaautiful, perfect baby." And you stayed that way for the time we were allowed to have you. I hear from Tony at times. He still misses you and loves you dearly. I'm so glad you two got to talk to each other in the months before you passed, you two were soul mates and he regrets ever letting you go. Lena is so happy with her husband and he is a good man and treats her very well. I am so happy for her. She told me Wayne invited them out for Mak's B.D. a year back and when they got there he wouldn't open the door. I think he gets some kind of sick pleasure out of hurting people. The time is coming when he will see what pain really is. I"m sorry to make this letter mostly about him but I want you to know I am fighting for Mak's life and I will never stop, do you hear me Mr. Heartless?  We did have some problems after you passed but I let it go so we could see Mak, but I am finished with laying down and taking it, I am going to fight for Mak with all my heart and soul.  She is the only reason we stayed in Kansas and now with Daddy gone I have to stay here and fight on my own, AND I WILL. The four happiest days of my life are when my children were born and I know you felt the same when Mak was born. The time is now and I am getting an appointment with Judge Ball as his condition for letting that adopt Mak was that I would stay here and help him with her and I did, but for what, we haven't seen her in three years but I know she still remembers us as you put us in her heart and even though she is young she still knows us. I will close in saying again Happy Birthday my beautiful child and do not fear for Mak, all will turn out well I promise you.  I love you Shannon and miss you so much.

 

                                Love Mom

Morning Babygirl,

      Not much to tell you as you know, not much happens here in Kansas.  Still missing all of you, hope to see you soon.  Still haven't seen Mak, hope to soon.  Sean and Zack are still here with us.  Sean really likes his job, Zack still hates school.  I fear he is suffering with depression as his grades are slipping and he is so quiet.  Just stays in his room and plays his games and gets on his laptop.  I got him one for his birthday hoping he would use it for school.  I would love to send Mak something but they just return everything.  I don't understand why they don't want Mak to know her family.  I wonder what they are afraid of.  Something is wrong there and I will find out.  I feel like I have let you down where Mak is concerned, I hope you don't feel that way.  Talked to Dez the other day, she is as disgusted as I am with this whole ordeal.  There has to be something that can be done and I will find it and settle this whole thing.  No heart no soul no Heaven, I hope they can live with that.  I will close for now but will keep on the beaten path for Mak.  Love and miss all of you.

                                                             Mom

Morning my love.  Well the year seems to be going a little better this time around.  It gives me hope for the things I am working on involving Mak. I will make sure she is alright I promise you.  I miss the Holidays, we don't celebrate anymore, what is there to celebrate?  Dez is looking for a place for us back in California, I hope she finds one by this summer so we can leave here.  I talk to Dez on a regular basis, she has given me some really good ideas on how to solve our problem. I am so pleased that you and Daddy are no longer in pain and in a perfect place, but I will never stop loving or missing you.  I am trying to get Sean to go in for another colonoscopy, it is way past time for him to have it done and he is showing bad signs of the cancer.  I don't think I can make it through the loss of another one of my children. Talk to the big guy and ask for a little help.  Lena is home she boke her ankle in many places while working in Maryland. She had a 5 hour surgery and has to stay home for at least 3 months. I Love You Shannon and will never stop trying to get Mak.  Our day will come, I have faith that God will see us through and she will be home with her family where she belongs.

Love to You, Daddy, Tia Shirley.

                                                    Mom

Good morning sissy.It's been awhile since I wrote you.I'm soory for that.I hope your doing good.I'm doing better.I started intensive treatment for my alcoholism.I go four days a week and I see 2 theraphist now.I have faith and I believe it will work this time cause I choose for it to.I'wasn't pressured by anyone.I want this this time.I really hope you and dad are good and I love you both.TTYL Sissy.Love you.Hugs and kisses.

Another year, can't say it will be a happy new year, can only pray for one.  Anguish is all I feel now days.  I know my time is close, I can truly feel it.  But I will get to be with you and Daddy afain.  My only regret is not seeing my beautiful Mak before I go.  I have emailed countless times to no avail.  Just a picture would show they have a heart and I would thank them so much.  I can't believe it is already going to be 2010.  They say we will have a blue moon tonight, how appropriate.  I haven't spoken to Dez in awhile, but we do keep in touch by email.  Your Aunt Doreen is very sick and I fear she will not last much longer.  You will see her before I do I'm sure.  She has changed my life so much by bringing me so much closer to God.  I get to talk to Buster once in awhile.  His voice is so deep now, he is growing up so fast just like Mak and I am missing it all.  At least we get pictures of the boys.  Have started a site for your Dad, just have to get the $ together to pay to make it like yours.  Another year without you and Daddy.  I will miss you with all my heart.

Love to you all.      Mom

Well Guys it's that time of year again.  I miss you all so much.  Another year with no celebration.  What is there to celebrate?  Today is Dez Birthday, I sent her an email and wished her well.  I emailed Wayne once again I fear to no avail.  I would just like to have a picture of Mak to see how she has grown and I know she is so beautiful now.  If I could have just one thing it would be to see her again before I join you and Dad.  I miss her so and they can't seem to realize that.  I guess you have to lose a child to realize the pain and anguish that comes with it.  They say nothing is worse then the death of a child, nothing is ever the same again.  How true that is.  We have lost so much since coming here and now we have lost Mak too, it is almost like another death.  I don't know how much longer I can bear this pain.  I pray every night to join you and Dad, there is nothing left here for me.  Yes I have Lena and the boys but they can get on fine without me.  I feel so useless here, like I can't do anything for anyone especially Mak.  God I miss her so.  Maybe before I go they will let us see her just one more time.  I pray for it every day and night.  I know I have to forgive them, but God it is so hard.  I will close now leaving you and Dad with all my love and affection.  Put in a word with the big guy maybe he can help us out with Mak.

I will Love and miss you always.  Mom

Morning Babygirl,

   The Holidays are upon us again, no reason to celebrate here.  I am thankful for the family I have left but I miss you and Daddy so much.  My one and only Christmas wish is to see Mak.  I pray that God will make this possible.  Times are tough here as they are everywhere.  I pray for Mak every night and hope that God will put some kindness into the hearts of Wayne and Debbie and let us see her.  I miss her sooooo much.  I pray I am not letting you down by not doing more but this state has no rules and apparently doesn't care about Grandparents.  I do however thank themfor letting your Dad see Mak before he passed and for coming to his service.  I pray also that she remembers us and that we will get to see her soon.  I love and miss you all.

              Love Mom

Hey babe I know you have been around a bit, but nothing can replace the real thing. I so wish I could find another special friend, not to replace you but to be able to talk to like we use to. I miss our talks and just popping up on one another.  It is sad that the people whom I am in contact with all take my kindness for granted.  Nobody is reliable.  I got the card your mom sent me. I love her much and miss talking to her as well. I hope she is feeling better and you need to just watch over both moms ok.  I love you and miss you. Ciao Bella until the next time.  XOXo